If only

if only
we had been given one more day

to speak to each other

to hold each other close

to sit, side by side, coffee in hand on the porch

rocking away the day.

If only

we had known

just how short the time was

that we had together

what we could have done

together

If only

you had taken the time

to understand that life is indeed short

and in that knowledge, taken better care

of the body you were given

the health that you have

instead of neglecting

thinking life is a long and winding road

time for all

if only

we had done more

cared more

loved more

tried harder

would that have made a difference?

would you still be here

with us

with me

talking, arguing, joking

would you ask for that coffee

sit in that chair on the porch

rocking away the day

no one knows our time

but the Father

no one can tell, when we will be called

could be that our actions hasten that time

 no matter what we do

that time will come as ordained

but I still sit

I still wish

I still cry out

if only