Truly Poor

 

I'm sitting here enjoying that usual cup okay cups, of morning coffee. All the routine things have been handled and now I have a moment. The windows are open and I am listening to the wind blow through the trees outside. The sky is a light grey due to the possibility of rain. At the moment, this is a time of reflection.

 Today would have been my late husband's 71st birthday.  I do miss him, but I am  adapting to life without him. This life if being single and yet strong.

This weekend there is a large gathering of folks who drive Jeeps in a nearby mountain town. My brother is talking about a trip he has coming up next month. Things I cannot participate in due to a couple reasons. Only one of which is financial.  My son was recently complaining about us being poor. This gave me a good reason for one of those mom speeches. While we are financially restricted, we are not poor. Poor is homeless. Poor is without personal vehicles. Poor is hungry. Poor is wearing the same clothes every day due to not having anything else. He did understand and agree.

 One reason is the fact I do not like doing things alone. Maybe if I made myself do it more often, I would grow more comfortable being a single person in a crowd of couples or gathering of friends. I also do not feel comfortable driving to places without knowing where I am going, where the parking or the gathering as a group will be. My son tried to tell me its the not knowing everything that adds to the sense of adventure.

 The main reason is the need to be here with and for my parents. From moment to moment one never knows what may happen. 

 I took mom to a doctor's appointment one day this week and the appointment took longer than expected. Dad who is usually fine alone, had a moment and got scared. He called the county police who responded to make sure he was okay. They had arrived shortly before we got back. We are now putting plans into place that someone is always there should I have to take mom anywhere without him. My extended family has helped in the past, even as they all work and have other responsibilities. Now though, I will need more of that help.

Here's the thing. While I do at times feel as if I am missing out when I can't participate in events or go on trips, the envy passes quickly. While my son and I do not have a massive or even small amount of throw way cash, we have enough. It isn't money or lack of that makes one wealthy or poor. It is what one has in their heart.

We live where I grew up, the small forest behind the house still full of the magic and memories. The peace and privacy priceless. We have family around us who are here for us when needed. We are able to help them, when needed. We won't eat at the finest establishments or run off to far away adventures, but we do have food, home, clothing. We have our requirements to life and that is all we really need.

Thing is, there is a big difference in what is poor. There is poor materially which in the end, won't matter. The worst type of poor, is spiritually poor. It is when you do not know the Lord or have Him in your heart. It is when you do not know His forgiveness that lightens your spirit. It is when you do not know His love, the love that causes you to share with others what you have been given. The peace. The comfort. The assurance. The promise of eternal life with Him. The things of this lifetime will pass away. The material possessions will become immaterial once our life ends. What is important, is the relationship we have with Jesus. For the time we spend with Him after this life, is eternal and will never fade away. It is without Him, when we are truly poor.

Lessons Across Time

 

Not being employed or having a productive hobby gives me plenty of time to think. From time to time I've had conversations face to face or online with people who have mentioned that they can tell a difference in me. I'll be honest, I can tell a difference in me.

Back when the virus thing first showed up, there was some concern but not much as I felt safe in my job,I knew they were doing what they thought best to protect the employees and I didn't go much of anywhere after work anyway.

Then, I got the call letting me know I no longer had a job. That rocked my world a bit. I just wasn't expecting that after having been told often that I would always be there and my job was secure. I was hurt. I was angry. I felt betrayed.

But. I love it when there's a but..Looking back now after over time, I can see that this has worked out for the best. Now, over four years along, the mental angst I felt then, has faded to a point of nothing more than the annoyance of a mosquito. The desire to spew vocal venom over the loss of job and the way it was done is gone. Because I can see all that has come since.

 My parents are getting up in years. They have health issues and needs that I am able to assist with since I am here. Time passing has taken a heavy toll on them, but it tends to do that to us all.

I was told when I was let go that I would be called back when things picked up. I needed something to do while I waited. Yard work.

What began then simply as a project to give me something to do and make my yard look better in appearance and be safer in use has brought about so much more. That is only strengthened by my current home and yard projects.

When the first section was completed, there was a really good feeling of accomplishment. There was also a feeling of peace inside as I was doing the work all on my own as much as possible. If something was too heavy, I did ask my son for help, but most times I found a way to get things done on my own. The job I had, always kept me pretty busy, so I'm used to activity, but I was using muscles that I didn't ordinarily use. Still, parts of it became methodical. When you start doing something like that, you can get a rhythm and it helps bring about a feeling of peace.

As each section of the yard was cleared, I felt better. The first time I found many snakes along the way, most nonvenomous, but a few that were dangerous and who were immediately relocated. This time I have not found any reptiles other than the very small and totally harmless.

I've been reading books that are educational and enlightening. I have not been able to sit and read in forever. There was always an interruption. Because of that my focus and attention span had suffered. Still now, years in, I find myself late in the evening reading and finding peace in the moments.

With all of the time that I have had here on my own, all the time to search my own heart and mind, I have found something that was long misplaced..me. I do still have those moments of stress, especially when I am concerned about my son or parents. Otherwise, there is a peace inside that has long been missing. I am very happy at long last with me. I like me, I like the life I have been given, I am content. I will admit that there are those rare moments when the solitude can be lonely, but it is a passing moment. I feel that this time has purpose. If I were popular and highly social, I could not be here for my parents. They need me more than I need a social status.

I am blessed with a home that sits in the woods. I can listen to the birds, I can watch what ever critter wanders by, I can watch the hummingbirds defend the feeders from each other. I have a body that still can do pretty much what I ask, I have a mind that is hungry for more understanding of expanded topics. I have a heart that loves and I have a soul that while seeks to find ways to make life better for others, is content with mine otherwise. The days of darkness have faded to near nothing, a disappearing point in the distance. Time heals and time instructs. I feel I have grown in many ways.  My mind, heart and spirit knows where my help comes from, my help comes from the Lord.

Psalm 121 1

I lift up my eyes to the hills-- where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth. indeed, he who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep.

There is Purpose

Its the time of year where I have windows open and ceiling fans circulating the air. I love this time of year. With the windows open I can hear the symphony around me. Even those which disturb my sleep. This morning I was awakened by an odd sound. Finally determining it to be a night bird I returned to my slumbers. Currently I am witnessing a slightly overcast sky and muted landscape. The deep greens of the woods behind the house comforting. From various locations birds are greeting each other and the day well into its beginning. The morning a time of quiet contemplation.

 Yesterday my dad shared with me his plans for an event he is putting on soon. An event that will happen only in his reality. This is the time of year when he can spend hours sitting on his front porch watching anything, everything or nothing pass by him. I listened to his initial plans, and what will need to be done before I returned to my home. I needed to run errands that didn't happen but I can do them today. My mother called me to let me know that dad had stopped one of the many delivery drivers that run up and down the road. Much too fast at times but that's another story. By the time mom got to them he was telling the driver all about his planned event. Mom's whispered words got a nod from the driver who told dad that one day when he had time he would stop and discuss the event with him. I was glad to hear that they both made it across the yard and back safely as their balance is not the best.

 Later I walked up to check on the vegetable plants that I have growing in planters. I got a good laugh out of my son when I called it my pot garden. For clarity its tomatoes, peppers and squash. It is up fairly close to the end of my yard due to that being the area that gets the most sunlight. While I was there I noticed my neighbor has a new puppy. I actually walked over and spoke with her for a while. She's lived there for seven years and this was our first conversation. There are reasons, that I now see were probably, mostly, incorrect. For both of us.

  We do not meet people by accident. Events do not happen randomly. I believe that everything that happens, everyone we meet, has purpose. Everyone who my dad has spoken with, no matter where he happens to be, have been very kind. He's in his mid nineties and has a rakish personality. Mom is more reserved, but she always has been, yet people treat her with kindness and compassion. Because that is what she gives to them. Most people we have crossed paths with in some fashion, have in their own way, shown that kindness. People have gone out of their way, to help me, help my parents.

 In the conversation with the neighbor, I may have found a new friend to hold conversation with, but offers a view and better knowledge of people passing on the dirt road that I cannot see due to the bushes blocking my view. This is one more who may help me take care of and protect my parents.

On another perspective, I believe that it is important that we show kindness and compassion to each other. That we care for those who we do not know but we see they have a need. It is when we offer hope, give encouragement, feed the hungry and thirsty, that we are showing love to our neighbor. When we care for those who cannot repay us, that is when we show and give love. When we recognize that everyone has purpose and matters, that is when we show love. Be it someone who is young or old, wealthy in material things or not, has a high social status or not. When we treat each other equally, that is showing and giving love.

 

Lost and Found

 

A few weeks back dad finally got the hearing aids he had been wanting for so long. Since they are so new, and he is adjusting to having them, we have to go every couple of weeks for checks and adjustments. This morning was one of those adjustment appointments. I get down there, help him into my vehicle and we head for the office. Once there I parked in the handicap spot for the first time, hang the tag and move around to help him out of the jeep. He didn't want to walk up the ramp so I helped him up the steps. Then made sure mom got up safely. Helping dad inside we were met and told to go ahead into the office. It was immediately discovered that dad had lost one of his hearing aids. It was nowhere in his clothing, in my jeep or anywhere along the distance we had walked into the building. That being the case, there was nothing the gentleman could do adjustment wise. We started out with the instructions to call once we found, or could not find the hearing aid. The gentleman walked with us helping make sure both of my parents made it safely.

 Once we got home I immediately began the search. It wasn't in the yard or on the front porch. It wasn't in his chair. It was under his side table. It was undamaged and he somewhat easily got it back in his ear. I called the office and rescheduled his appointment for next week.

 

 When someone is new in the faith, it may seem easy to get misdirected. We stumble, we take wrong turns, we give in to temptations. There are times, that even those who gave their life to Christ years prior, wander away. Life is a journey. It is a learning process. Every day holds lessons to be learned if we are paying attention. But, all along the way, there are pitfalls, detours, many temptations that will cause one to lose focus and direction.

But no one who is a child of God wanders too far that they cannot be found. No one commits  a sin too bad to be forgiven. To deny Christ is the only thing that separates  the lost from salvation and eternity with God.

That hearing aid was a small thing, replaceable. We only have the one life, irreplaceable. Once our time runs out and we close our eyes for the last time, there are no more opportunities. We cannot be sought out and given another chance. We made our choice. The best thing is to seek the one who seeks us. The One who calls to us and seeks to draw us near. We are not lost to Him, He knows where we are. He loved and loves us enough still, that He gave His only begotten Son to die on a cross that we may have life. His resurrection paying the price of our sins. Forgiveness given at great cost to Him, yet given freely to us. But the choice is ours to make. Do we wish to be found?

whispered prayers

Silent prayers I have whispered

from a weary heart.

Whispered, seeking answers

seeking help, seeking You

as the days passed, each day another stone

pulling at my spirit, tugging at my soul

leaving me crying, leaving me ever more stronger

seeking You, seeking Your presence

Knowing, always knowing

You heard the whispers, You heard and You saw

as I fought the demons around me

even as I sought You daily, moment by moment

in prayer

silent prayer

whispers from a weary heart, seeking You

storms of this place gathered round me

as the darkness grew ever stronger

my faith did not waver, did not falter

I knew, yes I knew You heard

I know, yes Lord I know

my time, is not Your time

I know, that it is in Your time

that You will answer

as You wait, as You watch

as You draw me ever closer to You

in prayer

silent prayer

whispers from a broken heart

cries from a weary soul

pleas from one that believes

from one that trusts

as I wait, secure in You

When You answered, as I knew You would

responding to the prayer of a broken child

healing began anew, in You

recognizing, all things, come from You

I knew, even as I listened

to a neighbor, to a friend, to the man down the street

they were sent, in answer

what they said, what they did; an answer

to a whispered prayer

silent prayer

from a weary heart

to a gracious Lord, a loving God

joyous now, singing praise singing praise

I stand in Your light

sheltered by Your love, bathed in Your mercy

I know, the songs of this heart

the shouts of this spirit

are to You, for You

for You have heard my whispers

answered my pleas

wiped away the tears from these eyes

wrapped in Your love, secure in Your peace

I stand, arms raised to You

assured of the love

assured of the answers

to whispered prayers

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guide me

How I look to You my Lord

guide me

take my hand, walk with me

guide me

as I walk here

there are places of sadness

loss fills the hearts of many

guide me

give to me the words to share

that will bring healing

that will offer a happiness once lost

guide me

that my actions reflect You

and the hope that You offer

as I walk here

there are places of anger

frustration fills the hearts of many

guide me

give to me, Your words of calm

that will bring peace

that will bring healing

to those that need Your peace

guide me

that I will reflect You

there are places Lord

of hopelessness

where once there was a dream

it has been lost, abandoned somewhere along the way

guide me

walk with me, giving to me Your words

that I may offer Your hope

the knowledge that no matter what is happening here

it is but temporary

home is but a decision away

guide me

that I may show You are a Savior of love

of healing, not of hate

You walked with the many

those that were ill, those that were sinners

You healed, and Your forgave

guide me

in sharing that truth

remind me

that judgment in time will come

but not from me, never from me

guide me

that as I travel this place

I share Your loving, Your peace

Your hope

walk with me always Lord, in all things

guide me

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You came-- to serve

 

You came

into this place

to serve

To serve the Father, fulfilling His plan

You came, as a babe

innocent, pure

to begin Your journey

a King, born a lowly birth

so the common man will see

You understand

You know the simple things

that man lives

You came to serve, walking the dusty roads

teaching to all that would hear

explaining, sharing to all that would understand

You came

You came to serve

as You healed those brought to You

those that reached out to You

even as trembling, they touched the hem of Your garment

You knew, when one believed

and You healed, in compassion

You came to serve

reaching out to the children

blessing them in all ways

smiling at their innocent laughter

smiling at their innocent heart

You came

to serve

You came

to obey

to go to the cross

serving the Father

obeying His holy plan

serving man

by paying the price of sin

walking from the tomb

Savior

You came to serve

You left, after commanding

to all that follow You

to be like You

to understand the reasons

the teachings

and to serve others

as He had served

by walking this place

serving others

by sharing

teaching

reaching out in all ways

to explain

to all who would listen

to all who would hear

and understand

the gospel

of the Son of Man; the Son of God

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my heart sings

 

You are Lord

my heart sings

You are Lord

with upraised hands

eyes looking only to You

I sing

You are Lord

I know, that You are with me

I know, that You guide me

I lift my eyes to You

my heart sings

songs of joy

songs of peace

to You Lord to You

You are King

I am Yours

my heart, my all, Yours

understanding Your mercy

filled with Your love

humbled by Your grace

knowing from where I have come

lost and afraid

lost and ashamed

You cleansed me of all stain

You are King

You are Lord

You are Savior

I know, Your peace

during all storms

You are with me

You are my Rock

You are my strength

You are Savior

my heart sings

hallelujah, hosanna

You are Lord

You are Light

in the darkness

sanctuary in the storm

You are Lord

my heart sings

You are Lord

with upraised hands

eyes looking only to You

I sing

You are Lord

Your love fills me

heals me

You are Lord

I am assured

I am secure

in You

I am assured

of eternity in You

with You

You are Lord

my heart sings

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All in with You, Lord, all in with You

All in Lord, how I seek to be all in

as I walk with You

I know that there will be those

who do not understand

seeking, ever seeking to criticize

their eyes closed, their ears sealed

they do not understand

this walk with You

the relationship that You offer us

that You seek with us

contentious to some, for they do not understand

cannot comprehend

the love You offer, the peace You give

all in Lord, I seek to be all in

as I walk with You

along this way, this path narrow

strewn with the rocks of malice from those

along the way, determined to bring strife

Their taunts ugly, their words hurtful

intentionally

for they do not see You, they cannot with cold heart

understand Your gift of love

they stand along the way, hiding in the darkness

afraid for their sins to be seen in Your light

lurking in the shadows, they wait

seeking only to bring pain

share the darkness in which they hide

it is all they know, they know not Your peace

so they seek to prevent, seek to damage

the life I seek

one of being all in my Lord

all in with You

that I may with You, walk this path assured

strong and blest in You

that I may walk, with open eyes and ready words to share

of Your love, Your most merciful grace

that I may share Your gospel

to all that will hear

planting a seed Lord, for You

hoping to give others Lord, hope

reason to seek You, seek Your love

all in Lord, all in with You

is what I seek

as I walk this path, listening to You

speak to me,

as I follow You Lord, along this way

allowing You to guide me, gird me in Your love

wrap me in Your peace

fill me, with understanding of You Lord, of You

as I seek, always seek

to be all in Lord

all in, with You

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it is all about You Lord

 

Help me Lord, to remember what's important

not to never to allow, my own thoughts and worries

to consume me, to overcome and over shadow

what is really important, Your children

those around me that are suffering and weary

let me see them Lord, recognize their need

give me wisdom in You Lord, to share

give me strength to reach out and lift up

helping those that are among us, that are in need

You were here among us

You walked the dusty roads, reaching out

to all that You passed,

teaching, explaining, healing

You saw not only to the emotional needs

but to the physical as well

Your love, so great

Your love, enough

Help me Lord, to remember

that as I make this journey to You

walking along with You with me

that I take the time, that I open my eyes

to see those that You have placed in my path

that I may reach out to them, lift them

from where they have stumbled

share with them, the news of You

reaching out in a way that You would

acknowledging, You. How You care for all

and all that is needed by those suffering

Speak to me, let me hear and recognize Your voice

understanding what You would have me do

go where You would have me go

living a life, that glorifies You in all ways

Help me Lord

to remember

it isn't about me

my wants, my needs, my concerns

it is about You Lord

all about You

and Your gracious

precious

merciful

love.

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how merciful is Your love

How merciful is Your love Lord

how gracious is Your way

You reach out to me

draw me near to You

on the days of my sadness

draw me near to You

when I am afraid

how merciful is Your way Lord

that You see my struggles

understand my fears

and You draw me near to You

close to You

calming my worries

feeding my heart with Your word

where I find instruction

where I find peace

so much there is to see

to understand

when I find myself lost in Your word

lost in You, surrendered fully to You

You forgive my sins

lift me from where I fall

how merciful is Your way

when I am weak

You are my strength

when I turn to You

fully to You

turning away, leaving behind

what past I held in my heart

leaving behind desires of flesh

seeking out the love

that is freely given

peace fully known

when I turn to You

realizing in my heart and life

how merciful is Your love

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I know, now I know Lord

Mistakes I have made

following temptations that come

falling away

standing here in the storms

I have in my error created

I know, how I know

I was wrong

to listen to a voice that called

come and see

view what is here, available

ready, for the taking

come and see

I was wrong, so very wrong

when I listened to the voice

calling to me, whispering

listen, hear what is available

take it into yourself

enjoy the sounds, the words

listen

I was wrong, so very wrong

when I heard that same voice

calling, teasing, taunting me

come and see, taste what is here

feel it as it flows across willing lips

come and take advantage of this

enjoy this

I stumbled and I fell

when I listened to the voice

calling from the sides of the path

calling from the edge of the darkness

I was wrong

how wrong

so wrong

and I know this

Now Lord, my God my Savior

I know

this is not something I can fix alone

I cannot correct my errors

fight the temptations

alone

I know my Lord

I need You

for You have promised a way out

You have promised to me

strength from You

lift me Lord from this

for You are the only way

back to the light

back to the right path

away so far away

from the wrongs

temptation follows, calls

I know

from here on my knees before You

the weight of my wrongs on my shoulders

I know my wrongs

but I know Lord my God

You are my strength

to walk away

Your song in my heart

Your words sounding and resounding

again in my heart

covers that voice

the taste of Your love

the feel of Your peace

Your song

always Your song Lord

of sweet merciful grace

that forgives

that gives strength

that gives peace

only You Lord

only with You

can I walk away from the temptations

that call

in that small voice

teasing and tricking

from the side of the way

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